Ive thought about suicide lately...?

well, if your father is abusive, my best addvice would to find a secret place for domestic violence, and if you feel suicidal, youre most likely just confused, but i can be wrong, call a professional, youre not a victim in anything, what you need is someone to protect you and take proper care of you, and remember , their are always people who care about you even if they arent family, so you dont need to feel alone :) i hope ive helped enough, good luck